December 1, 2013

Not sure if anyone still reads here, but here it goes...

It's been a rough, tumultuous year.. lots of ups and downs with illness, myself and Jaxson, divorce, recuperation and looking for work after being unemployed for so long. For the most part, starting over has been good. I'm happier, healthier and ready to hit the world head on. My dilemma at the moment though is that I've fallen behind on my car payment and it's about to go up for repossession. It's frustrating because the car is nearly paid off and of course after divorce, my credit has become less than stellar. I'm searching hard for a new job and hoping one comes through very soon.. but if I lose my car, getting to work will be impossible. Not to mention not having transportation for Jaxson if he becomes ill.

So I'm hear to ask if anyone can suggest any charitable organizations that may be able to offer help? Any suggestions or advice would be greatly appreciated.

May 4, 2013

And so the story goes..

Lots of thoughts cluttering my mind today and need to get it out.

One thing I neglected to mention in previous entries is that I had life changing surgery in June '12. I had gastric bypass surgery. My weight had gotten out of control and I needed to make a change.. not only for myself, but for my family as well. I watched what obesity did to my mother and grandmother and was ready to stop the cycle. Surgery was successful, but 2 weeks later, things took a turn for the worse. That's when I learned of my ex-husbands affair. It's been a while, and revisiting these memories are painful. I just want to get it all out as I work on moving forward.

We separated, and I moved out along with Jaxson. Post surgery, I was to be taking very good care of my nutrition and supplementation. Needless to say, it was impossible to do with the emotional state I was in.  I ended up dehydrated and deficient on important vitamins and nutrients. By the time September rolled around, I landed in the hospital for about a month. Then transferred to a nursing facility for a few weeks to learn to walk independently again. I had lost a significant amount of weight and muscle during my hospital stay. Also, Jaxson ended up in DKA and hospitalized while he was with his dad. The pump was malfunctioning. Now he is on injections again.. and missing his pump.

I filed for divorce in October, upon leaving the nursing facility...

Okay.. I have to stop for now, but will continue with this later. *sigh*

November 30, 2012

Single Mom to a T1D

I've been missing from here for quite some time. A lot of changes in mine and Jaxson's lives. Last summer I learned of my husbands affair. I ended up pretty sick and spent a good month in the hospital. After learning of his affair, we separated... then I went into the hospital.. once I was out I filed for divorce. It's been hard on Jaxson, but I'm working on making it a positive experience for him. I love him so much and hate to see him hurt, but staying married to his dad would be much worse for him. I have a positive outlook on my new found freedom, but I do hope to find love with someone special one day. I'll post about my illness in another entry, but just wanted to get word out that I'm back. I've missed connecting with my D folks :)

April 26, 2012

A Tough Life

Does Diabetes equal a tough life?  The following is a conversation with Jaxson on the way to school this morning:

Jaxson: Mom, my teacher read my Rufus book to my class today.
Me: That's so cool Jax! Did your friends have lots of questions about diabetes and your Rufus bear?
Jaxson: Yes. Ms. W said I have a tough life.
Me: (after a moment of contemplation) Do you think you have a tough life??
Jaxson: My pancreas doesn't work. I just want it to start working again and I'm tired of checking my blood sugar all the time. Will there be a cure soon, Mom?
Me: It's getting closer and closer every day. 

It would have been so nice to have been present for this moment in Jaxson's classroom. I'd make sure they knew that while controlling diabetes is a lot of hard work, it certainly does not equal a "tough life". The last thing I want is for his classmates and teachers feeling sorry for him. He wants so much to be treated like a normal boy, and I work hard making sure he knows that he is! 

If there's anything tough about Jaxson's life with T1D, it would be the part where we try to correct the misinformation and misconceptions that people have about those living with T1D. 

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