January 31, 2011

Looking Back

What seems like a lifetime ago, I had a blog on Xanga. I found an entry I wrote on October 30, 2006. It was about the most terrifying thing that ever happened to our family. But looking back.. was this the precursor to Jaxson's type 1 diagnosis?

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Monday October 30, 2006

We were on our way home from shopping last night when we noticed something wasn't right with Jaxson. He was staring blankly at Shelby and wouldn't respond to anyone. His limbs were limp. When his eyes started to roll back into his head we headed straight up the ER. As we pulled into the ER parking lot he started to drool heavily and then vomited. The van hadn't even stopped and my feet hit the ground running as Troy ripped him from the car seat. Within minutes, he was surrounded by ER staff: Checking vitals, drawing blood, administering oxygen and chest x-rays. They also gave him tylenol and ibuprofen for a 102° fever. While all this was happening, many people were praying.. myself included.

All the test came back normal, so I'm left to assume that it is something viral. The doctor said Jaxson had what is called a Febrile Convulsion: caused from a sudden spike in temp. We're taking him to his doctor tomorrow and keeping a close eye on his temp. The ER doc wasn't all that encouraging when he told me this could happen up until he is 2 years old.

All I know is that I've never been so scared in my entire life. I've never seen my girls so frantic, yet calm when they needed to be. I want to cry when I picture the tears in my husbands eyes at the uncertainty of his sons' well-being.

It's interesting to me how we never imagined Jaxson in our lives. After last night, none of us can imagine our lives without him.

Jaxson at the zoo.. just days before his ER visit.

January 30, 2011

Bedtime Conversation

Bedtime is one of my favorite times I get to spend with Jaxson. We have some interesting conversations. Some make me laugh, and some make me weep. Tonight, he did both.

Jaxson: Is all my blood going to go away?

Me: Jax, you have plenty of blood. We only need a drop whenever we check it.

Jaxson: I don't want my blood checked any more. (crying now) I don't want to have diabetes any more mom, and nobody is doing anything to make it go away!

Me: Jaxson, a lot of people are working very hard to make it go away.

Jaxson: Like who?

Me: Scientist...

Jaxson: With what? Medicine?

Me: Yes, or a transplant.


Jaxson: My tummy hurts (trying for the 4th time to convince me he needs another snack).

Me: Say that without smiling...

Jaxson giggling now: My tummy hurts?

Good night buddy. <3

January 29, 2011

A Sad Day

My head is spinning, and even though Jaxson has a good steady number, I hesitate to lay my head down to sleep. It seems that just when I start thinking this can't happen to us, I'm bolted back to the reality of this awful disease! 

Tonight, 5 families are grieving. Grieving because they have lost precious loved ones to Type 1 Diabetes: A 16 year old boy, a 24 year old girl, a 27 year old mother of 2, a 9 year old girl who took her own life, succumbing to depression, and an 18 month old baby who was misdiagnosed. My heart aches for them all. I don't know their names or faces, but when this kind of news starts making its way around the DOC, I hear my sons name and I see his face. 

Dedicated to all of those who have lost the fight...

and to all of us who won't quit until we find a cure..

January 25, 2011

Best Day Ever

It's been a busy day here at my house. My oldest daughter Andi and the grandbabies came to spend the day. I had decided to let Jaxson stay home from school since we rarely get to hang out with them, plus he and little "O" (my grandson) play pretty well together.

Doll (my granddaughter), little "O" and Jaxson played while Andi and I visited, taking the periodic break to potty train O and check Jaxson's bg. (Jaxson had great numbers yesterday and I was really hoping for more of the same today). O (who is 2) showed quite the curiosity over Jaxson's finger pokes and insulin injections today. Every time Jaxson came to me with his finger extended, O would follow suit. It's moments like that when I can't decide if that was cute or sad. He really looks up to his uncle Jax and wants to be doing everything he is doing, but I assured him he did not want his finger poked.

Jaxson's numbers were less than desirable today... the closest to in-range we got was 190. Bedtime.. 389/negative ketones. I gave a correction and got him ready for bed. He sobbed the entire time. My heart was breaking becasue once again, there's nothing I can do to take away his pain.

Soon he started to settle down, and just before drifting off to sleep he said, "Mom, today was the BEST day ever!" I leaned down to kiss his forehead and as the tears crept forward I realized just how amazing my boy is that through all of his pain, anger and frustration with D, he can look beyond that and see the bigger picture. I have a feeling I'm going to learn a lot from my sweet boy.

...and a child shall lead them.

January 22, 2011

Blog Changes: Take a Peek!

It has been a challenge trying to find the right look and feel for the D-Tour here, but I think I've finally landed on something I like and can live with.

I used Picnik to make my header and button. My daughter Payton made my button in the sidebar. She is quite talented.  Be sure to take it with you before you leave. :)

I especially am pleased with my header (and love my boy in red!) The pictures of him on either side are before his dx and the one in the middle is the most recent and of course, after dx. I gave all the photos a gritty/grungy feel.

I picked up my background from Dotty dot dot. It's nearly perfect for the look and feel I was going for.

I will be doing some fine-tuning here and there, but for the most part I am done. I am one of those people who like to change things often, but I'm gonna roll with this.

January 21, 2011

Weekly Sugar Bolus

Head on over to Autoimmune Island and check out her first Sugar Bolus! She's offing some way cool prizes!

Well? What are you waiting for? Click the link and enter to win! :)

January 16, 2011

Is the Honeymoon over?

At first I thought it was the insulin pen, but I seem to be using it according to directions. Could the Honeymoon be over? Jaxson's BG has been consistently high after meals and before bedtime... as if the insulin isn't effecting him at all. Obviously adjustments need to be made across the board.

D Mama's and Papa's: How will I know when the Honeymoon is over??

P.S. Pardon the mess here as I'm once again in the middle of remodeling. :)

January 11, 2011

Humalog Kwikpen: FRUSTRATED!

At Jaxson's Endo appointment 2 weeks ago we were given samples of the Humalog Kwikpen to start using. I kept one and sent the other off to be used at school. I seem to be having nothing but problems with our pen. With every injection it seems as if I've given him nothing and his bg continues to rise. I thought perhaps the initial pen needles were too small. We switched back to dosing him with syringes and his bg fell in line. So we went to the next gauge pen needle thinking this was the problem, but again, his bg is on the rise. In the meantime, the school nurse is getting great numbers with her pen. My only other solution is to toss out the insulin pen and start a new one. Anyone else ever have issues like this?

January 7, 2011

Preparing for Battle

Oh my! There is so much I want to write about, but since the Ricki Lake and GMA drama from yesterday, I can't really think of much else. I was left feeling inspired and empowered by the DOC with our collective cry to be heard.

I have only been a D Mama since June 2010, but it hasn't taken long to tire from the ignorant comments about my sons DX and care. Amazing how living with type 1 for such a short time can make you so aware of all the misconception around you. I'm ashamed to admit that prior to Jaxson's dx I was one of the misinformed.

Something is happening though.

Something big.

Something wonderful. 

There is a movement beginning... to bring awareness to Type 1 Diabetes... more than ever, and  I want to be a part of it.

Houston We Have a Problem wrote a wonderfully motivating post pointing out the attention diseases like Breast Cancer, Aids, Type 2 Diabetes, Heart Disease and Autism get. I thought, "how true", and then it hit me: All of those diseases have had HUGE campaigns. I mean, Type 1 has walks and such to raise funds toward finding a cure, which is awesome, but has there ever been a campaign? One that stands out and emblazons itself into minds of the public?

A giant wave of momentum hit the DOC yesterday and I say we ride it all the way through.

We all have our own personal stories to tell. Stories of life altering proportions. Stories of courage and determination. Stories of little hero's growing up too fast. Stories of heart break and agony. They heard us yesterday. Let's continue to make them listen.

January 2, 2011

Christmas Aftermath Bullet Blog

  • This blog is being brought to you by the staccato thoughts in my head.
  • Try to follow along, and if you're lucky, it'll all make sense.
  • 300 test strips do not last an entire month!
  • I need to stock up, but they are so expensive.
  • Christmas was uneventful this year.
  • Kinda happy to see it come to an end.
  • My heart just wasn't in it no matter how hard I tried.
  • Would any D Moms or D rents care to share how the diagnosis of D affected your relationship/marriage, if at all?
  • Going through some difficult times. Email me privately if you'd like.
  • Jaxson sees his Endo tomorrow morning. 
  • Praying for a decent a1c.
  • Last one was real good... 5.1.
  • A fluke I'm sure. 
  • They're just haven't been any consistent patterns in his bg journal lately.
  • Making adjustments to ratios and correction factor is challenging.
  • The D Christmas card exchange brightened my holiday!
  • If you sent me a card, it's on display in our living room.
  • My entire family enjoyed them so much! 
  • Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
  • I'm SO far behind on reading your blogs DOC!
  • Kiddo's are back in school tomorrow.
  • I have hopes to play catch-up starting on Tuesday.
  • That's about all I have now.
  • Thoughts are beginning to sputter so I better stop.
  • Hope you all had a wonderful New Year!

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